Friday, September 2, 2011

Forever & Always

Once upon a time, I believe it was a Tuesday
when I caught your eyes
and we caught onto something, I hold on to the night
You looked me in the eye and told me you loved me
Were you just kidding? Coz it seems to me
This thing is breaking down, we almost never speak
I don't feel welcome anymore
Baby, what happened? Please tell me
Coz one second it was perfect
Now you're halfway out the door
And I stare at the phone and he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low, you can't feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said, forever and always
and it rains in your bedroom and everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
I was there when you said forever and always
Was I out of line? Did I say something way too honest
That made you run and hide like a scared little boy?
I looked into your eyes, thought I knew you for a minute
Now I'm not so sure
So here's to everything, coming down to nothing
here's to silence that cuts me to the core
Where is this going? Thought I knew for a minute
But I don't anymore.


Monday, August 22, 2011

.::What are words::.

Assalamualaikum.

Well, Ramadhan semakin hampir melabuhkan tirainya. Apa khabar kita dan amalan?Masih ade masa dan ruang untuk kita perbaiki diri. Mari kita renung-renungkan, jangan sampai termenung. Hihi

Cakap pasal termenung, tadi adela jgk termenung. Nak ikutkan mmg banyak benda utk ditermenungkan. Tapi ada something yang keep lingering in my mind since this morning. Tak tahu kenape lately asyik nak emo, kalau tak emo, tacing-tacing. Tah ape yang sedih sangat pun entahlah. Sometimes even when we don't want to feel sad but the feeling just keep coming, rushing in our hearts and eventhough we try to hide and pretend as if everything's normal but there's always someone who never miss the drama we put on act. As for me, sometimes the person could be my mum or my dad. Sorok lah apepun, mesti kantoi ngn diorg. Kalau dah puas pujuk still tamo cite, diorang akn bwk kuar jenjalan. Baru-baru ni my mum bwk I kuar konon-kononnye nk bg happy balik lps seharian monyok. Dahtu dah dpt berhelai-helai baju baru, confirm lah happy, kan?
*sayang mama!*

But sometimes when the moment comes, when we are feeling down, all that we need is a little love and attention. Not present, no. Not something like that. There goes a saying, action speaks louder than words. True, undeniable. Tapi, TAPI..words have the power to destroy or heal. When words are true and kind, they lift us up. When words are lies and insensible and harsh, they drag us down. That's why I say, words can heal our hearts OR wound us deeply. 

Someone told me this morning, die seronok dpt tgk saye happy and senyum. Bknlah really tengok, sbb chat je pun. I didn't tell the person that I was actually feeling down, right at the moment. So we chatted for quite some time, die pun layan jela wlpn tah pape and mengarut je lebih. Wlpn still early in the morning, die pulak mmg slalu subuh2 hari after sahur and subuh prayer pi sambung tidoq, wlpn I keep membebel after berkali2 die kata ok bye nak tdo, tp die tunggu jgk. Haha padan muka. Just a simple nice yet merepek-ing chat, but I do realize then, that words really can heal.

If you read this, you should know, it might be nothing for you, but it meant a lot to me. Dari zaman sekola rendah, zaman hingusan lagi, wlpn kite ngengade cmni, wlpn kte byk sakitkan hati awk, wlpn kite slalu buat sombong malas topup malas reply sms awk, tp kte kisah tau klau awk terasa or majuk! Hee. And thanks for this too, I'll keep that in mind:

"...talking to you is like sweet dreams when i sleep, so don't wake me up, coz sweet dreams are hard to get..."






p/s entry ni buat I rindu kt all my besties!tak sabar nk naik sem^^


Monday, August 15, 2011

I do, but I don't.

I do but I don't
I want to but I won't
I am but I ain't
I could but I just can't
It feels right but it's wrong
I've hurt way too long
So if you ask me if I know what I want
I do, but I don't.

Thursday, August 11, 2011

.:: My Comell ::.


Assalamualaikum.



How's your puasa? Hope everything's fine and masih diberi kesihatan yang baik untuk meneruskan hari-hari dalam bulan Ramadhan ni. Cuz without good health, terasa mcm berat nak berpuasa and beramal. Patutnye tak boleh lah mcm tu kan. Tp kita manusia, tak sempurna, so mudah sangat nak complain.

I was not feeling well these few days. Maybe because of the hot weather and kurang minum air kosong. So dua, tiga hari jugak lah rasa tak best. But eventhough I was sick, many good things came to me, Alhamdulillah. And there are sweet memories too.

But the sweetest of all, how my youngest brother treated his not-feeling-very-well sis. That day, I went off to bed after Subuh, sebab dah tak larat sangat nak stay awake. Normally I temankan dia tunggu van pegi sekolah pagi-pagi. Jadi hari tu tak berkesempatan. Bila bangun tido bibik cakap, tadi adik sebelum ke sekolah datang ke Non Acik (saye lah tu). Non Acik lagi tidur, dia tu selimutkan, terus diciumi pipi Non. Katanya ke bibik, bibik tengok-tengok kan Acik tau. Adik sayaaang sangat Acik. *Terharu*

My comel yang manja.


Selalu buka puasa masak, tp hari tu kan tak sihat, jadi beli je makanan. My younger sis buat air untuk berbuka, for sure lah air sejuk kan, budak-budak. Mane nak minum air panas masa berbuka. Tengok air oren sunquick tu, cam sedap je. But I said I don't want to drink cold water, takut lg lmbat sihat. Tp lepas solat, ttbe tekak mengade-ngade teringin air tu pulak kan. Pegi dapur, tengok air da habis. Sob sob. 

Nak jadi cite, balik terawih adik kecik ni datang lah ke bilik saye. Siap dengan tray, with two mugs. Tau tak apa? Rupenye dia buatkan air oren ngan air teh panas. Die kata, Acik minum air oren ni. Tadi Adik nmpk Acik mcm sedih je tgk air dah hbs. Tp lepas tu kena minum teh panas pulak, sebab oren dah sejuk kan. He looked at my face with his adorable smile. Aww, terharu lg. I asked him, sape buatkan ni? Adik lah. Dia kata. *terus peluk dia*

Maybe mcm tak de pape yg special, or maybe cam bnda biasa je bg certain people. But what I count, was his effort to do something good and nice for his sister. For us, mmg senang je nk buat air kan. Tp utk budak kecik yang manja ni, yang sume benda org buat utk dia, it's not that simple. Dengan cabinet in the kitchen yang tinggi, need to boil the water in the kettle, nk bancuh air lg. So, that's why I do appreciate what he has done. I told him, thank you. Very good, Adik! Pandainye dia buat air, sedap! Takpe, even air oren dia sangat masam and pekat, teh dia manis amat (sebab kakak dia ni minum teh without sugar), it's ok. Give compliment to our young ones, so that they will be motivated.
Praise is important to "Raising a confident child"!




Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Marhaban Ya Ramadhan Kareem^^

Assalamualaikum.

"Wahai orang-orang beriman, diwajibkan atas kamu berpuasa sebagaimana diwajibkan atas orang-orang sebelum kamu, agar kamu bertaqwa."
 (Al-Baqarah:183)


Alhamdulillah, kita masih diberi peluang untuk bertemu dengan bulan mulia ni.Dah masuk hari kedua puasa, macam mana amalan kita?Let's hope we are given strength by Allah to do better than last Ramadhan.Bulan Ramadhan bukan sekadar puasa, which is tak makan, tak minum, but it is much more than that. Nabi s.a.w. bersabda: "Puasa adalah perisai, maka apabila salah seorang daripada kamu sedang berpuasa, janganlah dia berkata kotor dan janganlah bertengkar dengan meninggi suara. Jika dia dicela dan disakiti, maka katakanlah saya sedang berpuasa." (HR Muslim)

Manusia mudah lupa. Lupa nikmat paling indah dari Allah- kehidupan. Masa berlalu pantas, bukan untuk ditangisi pemergiannya, bukan juga untuk disia-siakan kehadirannya. Tapi untuk dimanfaatkan sehabis mungkin. Kesibukan dunia, pesona-pesona tawaran duniawi buat kita lupe, yang kita tak kan hidup selamanya. Yes, manusia sering melakukan dosa, kita lalai dalam menunaikan tanggungjawab, kita alpa dan mengulangi kesilapan-kesilapan sama. Tapi jangan lupe, Allah mendengar doa hamba-Nya. Allah berfirman dalam satu hadith Qudsi, "Asalkan kita menadah tangan berdoa kepada Allah, Allah berkata: Aku tidak peduli."(Refer to Hadith 40,Imam Nawawi). Don't get wrong. Bukan Allah tak peduli doa kita, tapi Dia tak peduli berapa banyak pun dosa kita Dia Maha Mengampuni. Biar dosa kita seluas langit dan bumi, bila kita berdoa, Allah datang kepada kita dengan pengampunan seluas langit dan bumi. 

Selangkah kita mendekati Allah, seribu langkah Allah mendekati kita. Semoga Ramadhan kali ini menjadi medan perubahan kita, Amin.

 

p/s Nak benda best tak?Mai sini singgah.http://www.pdf-archive.com/2011/07/24/ramadan-self-improvement-checklist/. Download, print and get benefits!=)

Friday, July 29, 2011

Its raining. It's pouring...

The rain falls because the sky can no longer handle its weight.

Just like the tears fall,

because the heart can no longer take the pain.

Friday, July 15, 2011

Ein nicht gluecklicher Tag

We enjoy warmth because we have been cold. We appreciate light because we have been in darkness. By the same token, we can experience joy because we have known sadness.
Only that we need to have faith.

That sadness flies away on the wings of time.




Thursday, July 14, 2011

words

Quote of the day..

When angry, count ten before you speak.
If very angry, one hundred.


Monday, July 11, 2011

Enough Love





 Pernah tak rasa, tetibe badan tak sihat, makan tak selera, nak buat ape pun takde mood? One day we were so happy and feeling well, but suddenly the next day we can't even get up from bed. Rasa malas menguasai diri, rasa tak nak buat pape. Rasa sakit lah senang cite..Padahal tak sakit pe pun. Seharian do nothing, bile malam mata tamo lelap. Mengada-ngada lah. And this is exactly what I am feeling now.  *sigh*


I think, being away from people we love is difficult.
And I think, it makes us feel unhappy and quite demotivated.
I also think that the most beautiful thing in the whole wide world is
to be near to our love ones, side-by-side like there's no space left for us to be separated.


I think I miss someone. 

Saturday, July 9, 2011

beauty-fool

I know, fool is not a nice word to say. And to hear I bet. But sometimes, there are SITUATIONS when we can't even stop ourselves to call somebody - IDIOT, coz of the foolish thing he/ she does or says. Some might say, Eyh, tak baik tau ckp org cmtu. Mcmla kau bagus sangat. Well hey, tp klau terang-terang perbuatan yang dibuat tu memang "unwise" (normally I say this when I don't have heart to call something silly), nak buat mcm mana kan.

As example, today we went to the physiotherapy centre. My sis needs that coz kaki patah aritu. Since it's Friday evening, memang jam, banyak keta. So I waited in the car, while my parents took my sis to the therapy. Tengah tunggu tu, nmpkla sorang pacik depan fisio centre tu. Dengan susah payah bertongkat, menggigil2 dia jalan. Tetibe datang sebuah Mercedes-Benz, park sebelah. Keta cantik, usha2 driver nye pun sangat cantik. Stop je keta terus main henset. Tengok balik pacik tua tadi, kesian rasa. Slow sangat dia jalan. I got out of my car, ingat nk tolong tp cik nurse dah datang. Tetibe dengan tak disangka, kakak cantik tadi ni boleh kuar keta pastu jerit, "dad,what take you so long.faster please!I need to go to some other places.do you think I have much time?!" Ternganga I. Punyela lame, ayah dia depan mata susa2 nk jalan, dia boleh buat tak tau je dok dalam keta??! Yg tak tahan, dia marah ayah dia tu. Sebak rasa.

I said to her, "Excuse me Miss, I'm sorry for saying this, but your father is sick". Tau dia jawab ape?
"Don't worry, he's not sick. He can do it himself". Dia senyum selamba. OMG. For awhile, I felt, tak guna ade harta, and cantik, tapi takde manners. By the way, what are people who are NOT SICK doing in physio centre??If they are not the doctors, nurses or employees there, then mestila sebab diorang SAKIT, rite?Adoi, this is what we call beauty-fool.

I really think that,
beauty without manners and intelligence is a masterpiece painted on a napkin. Meaningless, in my thought.

p/s Love our parents, show them respect, talk nicely, appreciate them, as long as we can. We can't turn back time. Do not regret something that we shouldn't be regret of.




Monday, May 9, 2011

Exam Week

Assalamualaikum. Hi!

Erm..talking bout exams..we sure have our own story..but as for me, it goes went like this:

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Before exam: hoyeah!excited overr2 sebab study week ta yah g kelas. STUDY?ala sat la, exam next week kabut buat pa. InsyaAllah byk mase lg. Dah tu pung-pang pung-pang bersuke ria sane sini ngn membe2 kan..dari UM mule lah memanjangkan langkah ke IPBA. Ta cukup tu Mid Valley, The Curve, KLCC, TS sampaila ke Bukit Cerakah kat S.Alam sane nu jalannye. Lg satu, hari2 keluar makan, konon-konon bosan food kat kolej *dan2 je pdhl hari2 dok mkn situ xpna pulak complain* Nmpk beno nk jenjalan sebenanye.

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2 days to go nak exam: Eh paper HE dulu ke, APK ek?Ey wait,or English first?Thehee *gelak sensorang malu-malu bukak fail cari exam slip* Siap toleh2 belakang,takut rumate perasan nak exam baru nk amik tau exam ape yg nk di amik.Haih, don't do this at home k? T_T

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After first day exam: Alhamdulillah!yeay!merdeka 3 papers!Terkinja-kinja kt luar exam hall sebab seronok next paper will be a week after. Mulela otak berjalan laju mereka planning utk seminggu 'free' tu. Hehe. Tapi study ta lupe ok,sebab next paper Deutsch^^

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On 3rd MAY: Study habis dah. But still, i kept reading through my notes. I took a glance at my watch, n thought, before it's getting too late, I better go to sharina's room to discuss at least a lil bit more. When I was about to leave, it crossed my mind to check my things to bring into the hall for the exam the next day. Stationery,perfect. Matric card,in my pencil case. Tumbler,filled with water. Erm..eh,mane fail saye??Slip exam inside!Cuak kot,gigil2 cari sampai peluh2. Ta jumpe jgk. Isk3,rase sgt down sampai hlg mood nk study. Mmmgla org kate tader ta pe. Tp rs down sbb careless. Slalu sgt misplace brg,lupe bnd sniri. Mama & Abah kate, nnt klau ade anak pun ttgl kt supermarket sebab lupe T_T

My friends did ease my feeling, they texted me & said evrything's gonna be just fine. I love my friends for they always being by my side whenever I need them. But then, someone called me. I don't know how to describe how I actually felt that time. Since long, ta dengar suare die. Somehow, I felt so relief, like a big,heavy stone was taken away from me. I started to release my stress, to let go of the uneasy feeling. Dia..hm somehow motivating me, n it worked. I didn't even realize, when I started to smile. Because all that I knew, I haven't stopped smiling even when I was on bed, ready to sleep. You, yes YOU. You always know when to speak, what to say, and how to touch me even with a line. You, don't need to speak a lot sometimes, or being near to me, because you know exactly what to say, so that I can feel your presence despite your absence. Thank you, for being such an inspiration.

Ni gamba rajah slip exam saye.
 
Pagi tu, I woke up at 5.30am. Alhamdulillah, siap2 mengurus diri, I opened my precious tafsir. I said to myself, ayat ape hari ni saye nak dapat. What happened next? Subhanallah, somehow I felt, a lot, lot more relief inspite of what happened to me the night before.
"Dan sesungguhnya Dialah yang menjadikan orang tertawa dan menangis." An-Najm 53:43
Sangat direct dpt jwpn kpd ape yg berlaku. Sweet nye Allah,thank you sbb ta lupe bg peringatan kat saye dalam kesibukan menghadapi exam. ^^

p/s Last paper will be on 10th. Wish me luck, n all the best to all!











Wednesday, April 13, 2011

It begins.



Assalamualaikum.Hi.Hallo.



Well,since it's my first time writing here in my own blog(apesal ttbe nak rase bangga lak ni,ceh), I think I have to admit that it was not easy at first,to think of a name for a blog!Like seriously, saye ingat, nk hentam je letak name pape pun. Tatau pulak payah upenye. So,maybe org len kate, mende tah die neh bnd cmni pun nk kecoh, i dun mind. really. Sebab saye rase, to think of a simple,creative yet attractive name for a blog is amazing. Jadi, berbanggalah sebab anda, anda & anda yang ade blog ni, sumenye bijak & amazing! *Applause* 

p/s sedih sebab x kreatif,jadi yang terlahir hanyalah 'Little Rose'.Sebab saye suke ros!awk?hehe.ok abaikan bdk jakun ni ;p